what is anger to me. sometimes i think of anger like money. it’s immense and widespread stature can cause so much harm, but it can be spent away with the slightest new variable. as humans, we are naturally conditioned to experience a multitude of emotions, all varying in intensity. anger takes the cake for being up there as a a highly intense emotion. what fascinates me is that each individual person experiences anger in a different way, and it takes a different extent of “consoling” to rid them of the grasps of anger. my take on anger is that it’s kind of cool. i think it’s cool how a certain thing can bring so much distress to one person, and absolutely not affect another. to clarify, i don’t think anger is cool, i think the disparity between anger in individuals is.
as someone who experiences anger intensely, and sporadically i think anger is a dangerous spiral. sometimes certain things make me angry and sometimes they don’t, but i am striving for a state of constant-ness that is easy to want to attain, but quite difficult to actually exhibit.
so what is anger, and what makes it so easy to become addicted to its in-genuine influence?
anger, to me, is essentially a beautiful loss of composure which can burn bridges but also mend them with its reconstruction. anger stems from various things, but i feel like the most horrible anger stems from jealousy. at times it’s like a untamed beast that overtakes you and you never fully understand the anger you experience. i hate jealous anger. it makes me feel angry at myself for being angry but it’s also the most intense for in some ways.
while anger is extremely difficult. it’s almost like a decreasing or increasing sinusoïdal function, it’s comes in waves and you get angry, and you get over it, you get angry, and again, get over it. to me that’s another thing that makes anger unforgiving. the fact that it’s always going to be a there. sometimes i wish the emotion of anger was like a bad injury. once a year it would come, do all its damage then you wouldn’t hear from it again.
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