asma halai's blog

although it’s quite difficult to put into words how hypersensitivity works, as it’s different for each person, i feel as though a unanimous understanding of its placement is an integral part of feeling the experience as well as understanding it. i feel as though the general understanding of hypersensitivity is, a highly articulate and deeply empathetic understanding of everything around you and happening to you. from understanding every feeling that’s being thrown around and noticing small details that are often overlooked, hypersensitivity can be both a gift and a curse. heavy on how you look at it. you can find yourself questioning your own hypersensitivity, based on the anxiety that you are not focussing enough on other external emotional factors, to be deemed hypersensitive. it’s a curse in a way of overload. sometimes you just want to be able to see things holistically, but the impending urge to focus on a specific, overwhelms the finiteness of your experience. i believe the key is to embrace, and moderate. to embrace can be difficult as we are often overwhelmed by a single hyper fixation or the vastness to the extent of which we are being perceived, but to embrace moderately is what’s been working for me to far. if a hypersensitive feeling begins to take place, never push it away. sit with it. break it down using your articulate mind. allow it to overwhelm you, moderately. once you’ve gotten over the idea that this thought is a thought, ask yourself why it exists. i am a firm believer that everything happens for a reason, and this phrase has brought substantial serenity to my general understanding of almost everything, which almost always helps me break through the barrier of understanding my thought. now why is “sensitivity” not a bad thing at all. its just not, because of balance. most things are beneficial with moderation and being sensitive allows you to see the world in a different art. kind of like looking through the lens of the world with one more colour, a colour that we haven’t fully discerned yet, as we as a human species innately do. sensitive people are almost always told by every single person that, they overthink everything, they’re upset over silly things, they’re being “extra”, or that their feeling are simply put, too much. now i am not trying to be a sensitivity sympathizer over here, while all this is generally said, it’s not always wrong. often we all get into our heads about our own thoughts and assume that only our perception is correct because it’s our perception, the clearest one we can see. but it’s pretty important to understand that we are never always right. we’re all wrong a lot, and that’s okay because that’s literally all the point. the point is to be wrong. be wrong every single time. be wrong again and again and again. bask in your wrongness, and know your wrongness as what it is. but strive to be right, somewhere, eventually, sometimes.